All of us want more money.
(Many, perhaps most, people actually need more money.)
I want a little more money…and a lot more time.
(I acknowledge that I’m certainly not in a “need” situation. For that I am absolutely grateful.)
Time. That’s the commodity that really matters at this point in my life.
So really, the question is not, “How do I make more money?” but rather, “How do I make the same money without having to use as much time?” And eventually, “How do I increasingly make a little more money while maintaining the reduction in work energy?”
What would I do with that time?
Be healthy. (I not only want to spend daily time pursuing health and fitness, but I want to teach, serve, and share my experiences and knowledge.) Be creative. (I want to move forward with both writing and podcasting, and perhaps even music. I want to dive more completely into mixology. Bartending. Spreading joy through libation and conversation.) Be well. (I want to meditate, float, read, learn, and explore both my inner world and the outer world…through travel…so that I can find the self-worth and inner-calm that has eluded me to this point.) Be free. (There is double meaning here. I want to do the work I prefer doing without worrying about payment or income AND be able to do what I want to do when I want to do it. That is, I can provide people with all the “free Greg” I desire and also be the free-Greg about which I’ve dreamed.) Also, I want to do and share all of this with my wife, and with my family, and with my friends.
Here’s the thing, though. I don’t want to sacrifice the fullness of life, my joy and happiness right now for the sake of the dream. Why be unhappy and unfulfilled now for the sake of tomorrow? Tomorrow rarely comes…and when it does, it’s often quite later than we desire…perhaps later than the point where we can physically or otherwise actually enjoy the future-now-present reality.
So then…I acknowledge that right now I am both happy and content. I also acknowledge that I have a simple-to-state dream that I believe is attainable. I want and enjoy my cake…I want to eat it too…and I want diverse and delicious cake in the future, which I will both have and eat.
Great, Del Duca. That’s what we all want. So what can we do about it? What are you going to do about it?
I’m writing. I’m podcasting. I’m polishing and gaining experience and exposure in both of these realms.
I’m making drinks for friends and family, and they’re really digging them. I know what I’m doing behind a bar.
I’m doing quite well regarding my health and fitness.
My audience is nearby and it is small…but the audience members are true fans. They…you…dig what I’m laying down, what I’m saying, writing, teaching, and mixing. I appreciate that.
The “time” situation is quite good, but the “money” situation is only treading water.
I’m not entirely sure about the next steps.
Do I cease self-publishing, bear down, and submit to others? (I’ve done this, gotten nothing but no-responses and “No, thank you” responses to this point. Though I haven’t shifted from the blog to a full-on pursuit of outside venues…venues which have the audiences I seek.)
Do I suck it up and use loans/credit to purchase the podcasting equipment that I want? (I’ve used credit in the past to fund considerably less worthy endeavors. But I’m really trying to work towards debt-free. Do I need to sink in the hole a little further to finally find my way out?)
Do I just fucking stop-it with the writing and the podcasting and really take the leap to grow Family First of Greater Pittsburgh? (It grieves me to think about relinquishing the newest creative elements in my life, but they’re producing nothing but good vibes, insight, and some external chatter. I don’t want to diminish that, but it’s hard to avoid that when finances dwindle.)
I don’t know.
I’d sure love to hear your thoughts, suggestions, and opinions. (Now that I have a real spam filter, that which belongs to the [inbox] actually goes there…and now my [spam] box is always full whereas the [inbox] is desolate.) So please, make that [inbox] busy!